The human beyond the system

And a home for me and my girls

It hit me like a lightning bolt, in the kitchen of our short term rental.

Christmas was looming, our first as just my girls and I. I had the building report in my inbox, some red flags showing up. I had the agent backflipping on the settlement plans.

In the pressure of needing somewhere to live I had made an offer on a house.

And now, my beautiful girl was showing me another property, in a different location. As soon as a saw the listing, I knew.

I had made a decision from pressure not clarity. I had chosen from what was available and familiar, not based on the next chapter of our lives that was unfolding. I’d moved in fear.

Now was the time to pivot, quickly, before getting deeper in.

I had to choose the uncertainty of finding something that was a better fit. The uncertainty of needing a rental, with less than 10 days until we were homeless, and less than 20 until Christmas.

As she walked out of that little kitchen I let the tears flow, but I also knew just exactly what I needed to do.

That night I sent the emails, I withdrew my offer, and I applied for every rental I could find.

Within two days I got a call from an agent I knew. A rental. Already approved. Inspection today. Available just in time.

Three months later, a house to buy, closer to everything and a new start.

The lesson: clarity over fear. Trust in timing and doors opening.

Now it has happened again!

I started a podcast a few weeks ago. The podcast I thought I should create. The topics I thought people would want to hear. I hit publish and I instantly knew. I’d chosen the safe option, the mainstream, the predictable.

But I had told people. Like with the offer on the house.

And in hitting publish, it was like being back in that kitchen, seeing that real estate listing.

I’d missed the clarity and instinct again. Like before there was a pivot to see that I hadn’t been able to see before.

The pivot is my next era. A place to share my writing, a new podcast, a new business venture that lights me up and is built on the foundation of what I know and how I know I am meant to work.

It’s still unfolding, just like the house buying journey did.

And I’m meeting it with trust.